Reflecting upon my recent weight loss victory (losing 40 pounds in 3 months!), I am beginning to see the need to take my journey to the next level. I have to incorporate exercise. There is no way around it….but what I don’t understand is my hesitation.
Once upon a time, I loved exercise. I would escape into a world far away from my chaotic life, and exercise 4 to 6 hours per day. I maintained a weight of between 140 to 150.
That was me….and I was NOT afraid of exercise. Now I am terrified to get moving, and I don’t really know why. It is such a huge change. I look at this picture I see someone I don’t know anymore….I see someone who looks happy and at peace with herself.
Where did she go?
Where did this fear of exercise come from?
What exactly am I afraid of?
My 40th birthday is less than 8 month away now….and I am setting goals….and allowing myself to dream about the “what ifs”. I want to change. I want to be free. I want to be the person God wants me to be, and I don’t want to feel like I am going to die at any moment! So what’s the problem????
This is my next challenge on the journey to freedom.
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